If you know me at all, you know I love video games. One of my favorites is a little game called Undertale. Now, I am going to write this mostly spoiler-free because of the nature of the game. If you want me to info dump spoilers – I will gladly do that in private. But publicly spoiling the game will have the masses after me because many believe it is best played knowing as little about it as possible. If you haven’t played it, I highly suggest it. It’s available on Steam for Windows, Mac, and Linux. There are also Playstation 4 and Playstation Vita ports of it, with a Nintendo Switch port coming out later this year.
In Undertale, you play as a child traveling through the Underground. A lot of things and stuff happen throughout the game. Toward the end of the game, you look in a mirror and the text displays “It’s you. Despite everything, it’s still you.”
That line alone is my most powerful takeaway from the game. I love Undertale and it’s easily in my top ten favorite video games, if not the top five. The music, the general feel of the game, the way you can tweak your playthroughs… it’s a beautiful, fantastic game. But then there’s that line. And for the most part, the line is always there
It’s still you.
There’s a lot of things that have happened in my life. My health is horrible. I have lived through many awful things. Life hasn’t been easy.
But despite everything, it’s still me.
Things will get bad. Things will be hard. Life is often a struggle. I’ve lost people I dearly loved, like Beth. I’ve lived through abuse. My health will continue to be a hot mess.
But it’s still me.
There’s a lot of things I can’t control. Life often spirals and turns and twists into a hectic mess – sometimes beautiful, sometimes ugly, but it’s life all the same. But despite all the things I can’t control, I’m me. I’m still me. The “me” I am changes and morphs due to my situation – sure. But I am still Nora. I am still me.
I’ve often said I’m like a bouncy ball – I’m resilient as heck. I get thrown down, I bounce back up. Sometimes I may roll away and sometimes I may need help getting back up, but I still bounce back. And I’m still me when I eventually bounce back.
The entire world often seems determined to push me down. I make choices – some good, some bad. Some I’m proud of, some I regret. But at the end of the day, when I’m preparing to wind down and look at the future – it’s still me.
And the same goes to you.
The world often sucks. Things are often outright hard. You’ll make decisions that you’ll regret, and you’ll make decisions that you’re proud of. Sometimes you’ll be standing there, firmly telling the world that it’s not your time to move anymore. But yet. At the end of the day.
Despite everything, it’s still you.