I don’t WIKE it.

I don’t like change.

I really, really don’t like change. It’s hard. It’s difficult. It’s messy. I’m moving to a new state next month and I’m terrified.

I see my therapist twice a week (which I’m doing until literally the day before I move). Most nights, I play a game or watch a movie until I fall asleep. I see my one of my best friends on a regular basis.

And soon, everything changes.

And to quote Chris Evans, I DON’T WIKE IT.

And everything is chaos.

I find myself approaching autistic burnout.

I find myself regressing.

I find myself below my baseline.

And I don’t wike it.

I try to tell myself it’s normal. It’s okay. That even neurotypical people don’t cope well with change.

But I want things to be the way they are. The move is needed and is very good – it’s getting me into a much better place.

But I don’t WIKE IT.

One thought on “I don’t WIKE it.

  1. You are not at all alone. I don’t like it either. Next month I start with a new autism doctor, the second one this year. I’m freaked out and terrified too. The one I’d been seeing for 3 years got a better job in Minnesota, and her replacement decided on a career change. The only real consolation is that the doctor my daughter and I were originally supposed to see can finally see us. But I’m still terrified. It’s a more broken routine…

    I don’t like it either.

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