I wrote this poem my senior year of high school spring semester. The assignment for class was to write a “tribute” or “dedication” poem to someone. The other students in this class wrote these mushy lovely poems to someone they admired or who they looked up to. Me? I took the exact opposite approach. I blew the socks off the creative writing teacher as this was his first year teaching and I guess he wasn’t expecting that. That’s me, breaking the norms! ;D
It has been revamped since then (I last modified it sometime in 2008 when I took creative writing at community college) because I didn’t like the format that the teacher made me stick to. So I tightened the language, made it in a style and format I liked, and this is the final project. I still have the original somewhere but I like this quite a bit better. 😉
Nothing (To My Father)
I reflect upon the past,
wondering if I knew the truth
or if I was fooled, and what I knew was
What happened to make things change?
When did you quit loving me?
Did you ever truly love me, or am I
Stop tormenting me!
Yet why should you love me?
Whatever did I do; am I just
You used your tricks to harm me,
and wounded me by your words.
Some scars never heal,
Your priorities were distorted
Alcohol was your idol,
I realized I was simply
I believe Family is the most important thing
You claimed it.
Yet your actions proved otherwise,
The lies begins to come out,
I’m victim to your hypocrisy,
and fading into
As I learned the truth,
and free myself from your grasp
I realize that I was never
Starting live anew,
running free from the past
learning to live without you, no longer
And in the end,
I realize at last
it is not I, but it is you who is